October 7,2024: College life can be a dangerous obliviousness

Hello pretty gals and guys! How are we feeling today? I'm feeling a little sleepy today, very sleepy and i still feel drained from this weekend and the emotions i've been feeling. I did not post yesterday, it was a very emotional day for me, and I got home later than my sleep schedule. We finally got our tattoo gun back, I can finally buckle down, I'm so excited!! I'm genuinely on a bit of a whirlwind, this trip to Houston really let me know how energies can impact you, as well as “peer pressure”. This trip showed me how dangerous college life can be, especially when you don't have a stable sense of self. I know It could be a reflection of yourself, but I definitely vied all this outside myself. College life can be depicted in many ways, what I saw was: green every second of the day, drinking at knight, gossip and drama is the only conversation unless its about guys. Man, how much boys are the center of these girls minds. I observed how everyone correlated and had fun, and it all centered around: sex, green/alcohol, and gossip/drama. Everyone is so sensitive and defensive, and it physically feels as though the only emotions that are “ allowed” to be presented are : Anger, lust, excitement, and irritation/annoyance. It's an environment that presents itself as unable to be vulnerable, or unique, even alone. Don't even get me started on relationships, or what people think they are. Not every relationship in college is like this of course, but all these people think about is pleasure, they see a good looking person and go crazy like fangirls/boys, unable to contain themselves and try to see past the face. Now they already dive into pleasure and wonder why that person has a crappy personality or is immature with their feelings. On top of that soo many people just allow others to touch them however, wherever, and whenever they want, that's why these girls and boys have no manners. They allow all this freedom to blind side their respect for themselves, and can easily lead to unfavorable circumstances. Speaking of this, too many college students allow themselves to get out of this world drunk/high, to the point people have to carry you. They put all their trust in people they met that same day or less then a month ago, surrounded by lust-addled strangers… It's just disappointing to see in person, and sparks a strong discomfort in me as I'm aware they truly think to themselves : “ This is okay because others are doing it” “ I don't care, it's my youth” “ I'll be okay”, etc. There are also the constant insecurities projected out because of wanting to fit in, or not wanting to stand out because you don't like this or that, even feeling  embarrassed or ashamed for being who you are, especially when you're surrounded with people who make you feel inferior. Nobody should make you feel inferior, that you have to conform to their schedule or time, and especially that you should be embarrassed for anything you love/like to do. It's really important as you go through your teenage years and 20’s, that you learn yourself, have a stable sense of self, are proud of who you are, and have respect for who you are and your body, this sense of self and comfortable with yourself allows you in those years and later on in your life to truly be you. To not be desperate for a man/woman, to not fear starting over again, to know your worth and respect yourself, and to especially not let others thoughts control and lead your own life. To end this off, I love you for you, whether you have the biggest eyes or tiniest thighs, whether you have a negative mindset, or treat everyone with the kindest eyes; no matter what your vessel looks like, or your way of thinking, even how distorted your reality is, it's important to be yourself and to conform to what you like and love, not what others think of you and or wearing/acting/look like. It can be a little uncomfortable, but that should never stop you. Take it in stride and realize the excitement in learning yourself and making others uncomfortable because they don't have an impact on you. Be their inspiration. I love you sooo much! Beauty is in the eye of the beholder, and you are in mine. Grand Rising! Sweet Dreams! And or Good Afternoon! Muah

Question of the day

What color is your Aura?

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My answer: I feel my aura is green, fluid and everywhere like Mother earth, but also associated with calmness, serotonin boosting, and relaxation. As well as exploration, as it knows no bounds and does not limit itself, evolving and growing itself, as Green is endless.