October 14th, 2024: A weekend I will never forget.

HII My love! My Self-care day turned into a weekend, which I loved and thoroughly enjoyed. On Friday I ended up watching Inside Out with my brother, it was funny, and made us both tear up a little. I already watched it and had wanted to watch the 2nd one, but my brother claimed he never saw it. Your girl was too tired by the end of the movie, we didn't end up watching the 2nd one. On Saturday, I went to this Jewelry Market that was only here for this weekend. It was absolutely beautiful, there were so many different kinds, from chunky, to crystals, to beads, to marriage rings. There were so many Indians and it made so much sense when we were looking at everything. When I tell you a single ring was 22K, or a pair of earrings 7K. That place had so many diverse items, I started thinking I need me an Indian man. I ended up getting some crystals I've been looking for, a beautiful set of bangos, a lovely crystal necklace, 2 other necklaces, and a bunch of pendants to make my own jewelry. I had a lot of fun there, and it was interesting to experience! Then we went to Hattie’s B, it was sooo good, and the workers were so sweet! The food  lowkey hit better than Dave’s Hot Chicken, and they had a lot more options for cheaper. After we finished, me and my friend went to an Art Exhibit I found on Eventbrite. It was amazing, I truly enjoyed my experience, and was able to actually understand the Art on a deeper level. The Artist we specifically went for was named Joaquin Soto, all his art was made from the parts of 2 Volkswagen beetles he got for $200. His work was on the mental health he had battled with for 25 years, as he didn't even believe in Mental Health, he didn't truly realize that all he was battling with was being channeled out on his friends, family, lovers, and co workers. You can really feel the emotions and energy coming off from his pieces, the story they tell and the way they draw you in to interpret how you feel from his works are absolutely phenomenal. The one that especially resonated with me was his work, In the waves of the mind. This piece( I'll put a photo down below), was so simple, yet intricate. When you first see it, I kind of thought “oh 2 humans with their visible brains showing and metal waves coming out of it”. The longer you stare, and really take in the different wavelengths, the vibrant blue background  with holes burnt through, the hidden red behind the people, and the burnt wood surrounding them, how some of the metal is thick and yet some the tiniest piece; I really feel as though this is how my mind would be represented, the holes representing the gaps in my memory, whether genuine or forcing to be forgotten, the vibrant yet stale blue, the imagination in my mind stagnated by lack a of passion I felt I had lost, the burnt wood surrounding the 2 people who share their minds, My Shadow self and My authentic self, connected yet not fully integrated, and the waves different in length and size, representing how far i'm willing to surrender to myself in different aspects of my mind. I didn't know what to expect as I entered this little exhibition, and yet I found some more parts of myself, I thought I had lost or didn't know existed. They had a larger part of the exhibit holding other Artists' work we were allowed to see. There were so many beautiful and articulated works, I was almost overwhelmed. One in particular called Young Lust, was in this lone room of brilliantly colored canvases. When I saw It I immediately knew that was going right above my bed in my new home. I just knew I would have to go back and buy it, sooner than later. It resonated with me so deeply, not a single part of it was the same, no size, color, length, and yet it all fit so well together. There were a few more pieces that I had loved by the Artist named Katherine Baronet such as: Slumberous Garden Nymph, Soul Visit,  and Magic Universe. I couldn't believe it, but there was a piece called, Beauty is in the eye of the beholder. I started jumping up and down, thoroughly excited that my favorite quote was in Art form in front of me, in this place that is resonating with me, all on video that I will be posting for Meraki’s. On Sunday, I had what I would call a reset day. It was a lot of fun to say the least, I really enjoyed nature, relearning how to relax, accept certain coping mechanisms, relearned solitude with my present self, and leaned into my feminine energy. I also danced, which I haven't done in a year or longer I believe. Not the creating, or perfection, or even a thinking dance, but a flowy, from deep within, freeing dance. I used to do this a lot, anytime I was alone in the house, or had enough space, I would let the music control my body and move how I felt fit. It was extremely rejuvenating, and ignited a flame, I had believed snuffed out. Lastly on that wonderful day, I cried my heart out for two hours, talking with a friend who lives with me. It was the first time I was so heavily supported, and my shadows kept pouring and pouring. It felt as though a weight was reduced from my shoulders. I will forever be grateful for that space she created for me to speak what came to mind, and allowed me to vent to her. I have not felt so accepted, and came to so many Self-realizations, and roots of a lot of things, that I'm genuinely grateful to know. Thank you universe, spirits, angels, and guardians; for always being by my side, and showing me my higher self. Thank you Saskia, Elysia, and Gaia; yall my girls through and through. And Thank you Lynn, for all you have done for me. To end this off, it can be scary to surrender to yourself, and to willingly experience pain. As long as you are willing you will see the truth of the sunset; “Sunsets show that endings can be beautiful too”. I love you soooo much! Beauty is in the eye of the beholder and you're in mine. Grand rising! Sweet dreams! And or Good Afternoon! Muah

Question of the day

What is your favorite Affirmation?

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My Answer: I am worthy of all I deserve. It is one of my favorites considering I found it a little hard to accept that truth.